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Robby called to tell me he’s really proud of me and proud to be WITH me and he loves me. And now I’m crying. I just feel like he knows how to fix everything all the time. He just makes my life better and even though I’m fucking ugly crying I don’t know if anyone has ever done that for me. I love the way he makes me feel and how attracted to him I am and the big gestures he does for me but I love him the most when he does things like knows I’m having a bad time in life and I’m struggling and he calls to tell me he loves me and he’s proud of me and he’s thinking of me. I wish I had that on a voice message because that meant the entire world to me. I love him more in this moment that I really ever have. I just feel like he’s my person more than I’ve ever felt for anyone in my life. I know that’s naive and I’ve never met him in person and our lives don’t match or make sense but I just. He is such a good man and a good person and good provider and good worker. When literally everything in the world is bad from money to family to friendships to business, Robby is good. I just needed him so badly and somehow he found a way to show up and knew I needed him. I don’t even know how he does it anymore or why he does it, but he never waivers. He is the kind of man I have always prayed for. It genuinely feels like answers to prayers. I don’t know how to make anything work in life but he makes me a better woman and a better person all the way around. I always want to do and to be better with and for him. I will do whatever it takes to make it work with him. I just love him. My entire heart longs for him.